IN A BLAZE OF GLORY...

Wow, okay so I've been 'dormant' for awhile. Feels like I've been in hibernation for the past two months, been so busy, not had a whole hell of alot of time for internet, and what with the Halloween Party John and I are hosting Friday night, probably won't have a whole hell of alot of time this weekend to do hop on either. SOOOOO much crap to do, so little time.

Anyway, I've got a new addiction. [link]

You ALL must join....join or diiiieee.... >_<;

But yeah, still jobless, and looking. Applied at 4 pharmacies a bookstore and *cringe* Blockbusters. But at least we're not struggling for money. It's tight, yeah, but at least nothing is behind, and we're able tp make all the bills with ease. Can't say the same for me mum and her hubby though. >_>; I have no pity for her though, it's their own damn fault. They have that "The world owes them." type of attitude....not good....*shakes head*

Regardless of misfortunes, and mediocrity however, I have suddenly pulled out of my artists block. It was the funniest thing too...XD I was laying in bed last night and at about 1:15, I sat bolt upright, walked downstairs and started drawing. XD And...here's the kicker...I can all of a sudden, draw HANDS! o_O; *gasp* And....and PROPOTIONS! O_o; It's like lightning struck my brain or something, I dunno, but I'm not complaining. When I get my new scanner/printer I shall be uploading MUCH work, yes...much much work...

I also realized something else...I look daaaaaamn good as a cartoon. XD <3

But yar, I gots unpacking and cleaning and cookin' to dooooo so....BAI! : D <3


"Hey! D'you know we's in the spirit world? Heh-hah!"

REAP THE WHIRLWIND!

"And Bon Jovi sang."

<----Dance The Magic Dance!

Kiefer.....

IN A BLAZE OF GLORY...

Level 1
( ) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex

SO FAR: 1

Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love (Gina<3)
(x) Dumped someone
( ) Been Fired
(x) Been In A Fist Fight

SO FAR: 4

Level 3
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person (Kiefer..<33 Corey Haim <333)
(x) Skipped Class (Pfft...I pity those who HAVEN'T!)
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die (....I saw a man get turned into a road pizza...it wasn't pleasant T_T)

SO FAR: 7

Level 4
(x) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your deviantART friends (My Gina ^,,^<3)
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane [Woo!]
( ) Thrown Up From Drinking (I'm no lightweight! >)

SO FAR: 9

Level 5
( ) Eaten Sushi
(x) Been Snowboarding (God it sucked and I hated it so I turned in my board for a pair of skiis at the rental shack....I still hated it but it wasn't as bad! XD)
(x) Met Someone Through Internet
(x) Been in a Mosh Pit (KISS pits are brutal)

SO FAR: 12

Level 6
(x) Been In An Abusive Relationship (My ex was a dickhead ._.; )
(x) Taken Pain Killers [I almost melted my hand when I worked at Dunkin Donuts, there was no way I was going to sit and suffer >.o;]
(x) Liked/loved Someone Who You Cant Have (Le sigh...Kiefer...Corey Haim)
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By (Not for very long though, I cant be out in the sun)
(x) Made A Snow Angel (It was a little deformed but we called it a special needs angel and I felt better :3)

SO FAR: 17

Level 7
(x) Had A Tea Party (Hasn't every little girl had a tea party at least once in their life? o.o
(x) Flown A Kite (Right into a tree! ;3 )
(x) Built A Sand Castle (At the beach...too close to the incoming tide..I cried T,,T)
(x) Gone mudding (...Fun to DO, not fun to clean up ._.; )
(x) Played Dress Up (Again, hasn't everyone?)

SO FAR: 22

Level 8
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sledging (<--- Is that supposed to be 'Sledding'? If so then yes! :3 )
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game (Gameshark, DUH! <3)
(x) Been Lonely ( ;,,; I miss you Gina..)
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School (I used to build up a wall of my textbooks so my teachers couldnt see me sleeping or doodling in class XD)

SO far: 27

Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set (And laughed as the light died! *licks fangs*)
( ) Felt an earthquake
(x) Killed A Snake (And regretted it, and cried like a baby T,,T)

SO FAR: 29

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled ( *VERY ticklish*)
(x) Been Robbed / Vandalized (When I was 10, some jerk stole my brownie sash and my handbook out of my mum's car. T_T)
(x) Been cheated on (I was 15 years old. I kicked him in the nuts, I got even. :3 )
(x) Been Misunderstood (On a daily basis. T,,T)

SO FAR: 33

Level 12
(x) Won A Contest
(x) Been Suspended From School (I stabbed a kid with a pencil! ;3 )
(x) Had Detention (For drawing in class ._.
(x) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident (Couple of fender benders, and accidently rode my bike into a parked car when I was 11, split my ear open. :3)

SO FAR: 37

Level 13
(x) Had / Have Braces (Have scars inside my cheeks from them >_<
(x) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night (Strep throat...>_>
(x) Danced in the moonlight (Skyclad during ritual ^_^<3)

SO FAR : 40

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look (My hair was cut like a mushroom, I SO loathed it)
(x) Witnessed A Crime (I see people steal shit everyday ._.
(x) Pole Danced (Only to make fun of my mum. XD <3)
( ) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes (I currently am right now! I have heart shaped ones, star-shaped ones, tiny ones, big ones, lined ones...etc.)

SO FAR: 44

Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through the mud
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam in the ocean (I hate salt water. T,,T)
(x) Felt like you were dying (My migraines make me want to jump off a bridge T_T

SO FAR: 47

Level 16
(x) Cried to sleep (My eyes were swollen shut when I woke up o,,o
(x) Played Cops And Robbers (Used to do it often, as a child)
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers (Lost Boys Comic <3)
(x) Sang Karaoke (Last staff party. My partner was smashed off his ass and couldn't remember the words...even though they were scrolling on the screen right in front of him. -.-; )
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins (And left a tip! XD <3)

SO FAR: 52

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't (Enjoy any color other than black)
(x) Made Prank Phone Calls (XD To the downstairs neighbor!)
(x) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose (Milk, Soda....it..actually kinda hurts..)
( ) Kissed In The Rain ( ;-; No but I want to. Gina <3)

SO FAR: 55

Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus (I was a stupid naive child ._.
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About (Gina <3)
(x) Blown Bubbles (In my beverages! And with bubble stuff! <3)
(x) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere (Outside the fire department! XD)

SO FAR: 59

Level 19
(x) Crashed A Party
(x) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People (First trip down to Disneyland...sucked horribly...car full of family)
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading (I love roller-blading<3)
(x) Had A Wish Come True (Gina<3)
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey

SO FAR: 63

Level 20
(x) Worn Pearls (My late grandmother gave them to me<3)
(x) Jumped Off A Bridge (Into water, and onto dirt..it made my knees hurt o,,o; )
(x) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina" (XD...Yeah, not gonna get into it!)
( ) Swam With Dolphins

SO FAR: 66

Level 22
(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice cube (Fudgescicle.. T_T)
(x) Kicked A Fish (On accident, it was bass..I tried to lip the bastard and he start floppin'. I dropped him and I lunged to pick him up but my foot knocked him back into the water)
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes (O_o; Who hasn't?)
(x) Sat On A Roof Top (Used to sneak onto it and eat chips and dip!)

SO FAR: 70

Level 23
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
(x) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel (I dont think I landed right, but I got all the way around..)
(x) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours (I can't even stand more than 1 T_T My elbow goes numb, and all the blood drains out of my arm and my ear starts hurting form the receiver crushing it against my head)
(x) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about (My Gina <3)

SO FAR: 74

Level 24
(x) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree (Crab apple...big mistake x_x)
(x) Climbed A Tree (o,,o Trees are MADE for climbing!)
(x) Had/Been In A Tree House (My friend Bonnie and I made it in her maple tree and her brother was allergic to maple, so he could never come up to bother us XD )
(x) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone (Signs..*quiver*)

SO FAR: 69

Level 25
(x) Believed In Ghosts (Still do. )
( ) Had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
(x) Gone Streaking (I was like under 3 years old, of course I used to run around naked! >)
( ) Visited Jail

SO FAR: 71

Level 26
(x) Played Chicken (On bikes. I always won! ;3 )
(x) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on (I was NOT happy. >_>
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger (I got really creeped out and went in back to hide T,,T)
( ) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused (...Ooo...Shiny..)

SO FAR: 75

Level 27
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
(x) Caught A Butterfly (Then let it go. We didnt know what they ate so we couldn't take care of it ._.; )
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried (Happens alot XD <3)
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed (Happenes less alot but still happened before ._.)

SO FAR: 78

Level 28
(x) Mooned/Flashed Someone (Gina! <3)
(x) Had Someone Moon/Flash You (Gina!<3)
(x) Cheated On A Test (I had one of those computer pens where you could store answers in and I just memorized the 're-test' and saved the info XD)
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name (On a daily basis!)
(x) French Braided Someones Hair (My mums and my sister's! )
(x) Gone Skinny Dipping (By myself. Aaaahhh hot tub <3)
(x) Been Kicked Out Of Your House (Thanks mum.. >_>

SO FAR: 85

Level 29
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster (Screamed bloody murder the whole time..)
( ) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
(x) Had A Cavity (I cant feel it but the dentist said it's tiny and not to worry about it. o.o
(x) Black-Mailed Someone (XDD I have embarassing pictures of our Pharmacist being drunk and making a GOOFY ass face!)
(x) Been Black Mailed (DRAMA! >.<; Nothing too serious though..)

SO FAR: 89

Level 31
(x) Been Used (All the time..)
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs (XD Bruised my kneecap doing it!)
(x) Licked A Cat (Just cause I wanted her to think I was her mommy!)
(x) Bitten Someone (Gina <3)
(x) Licked Someone (Gina<3)

SO FAR: 94

Level 32
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
( ) Had sex in the rain
(x) Flattened someones tires (I was a mean little child. XD )
(x) Rode in a car/truck until the gas light came on (Total accident too!)
(x) Got five dollars or less worth of gas (I pitched in .50 cents for gas once cause it was all I had on me. XD)

TOTAL: 97

Repost this with the title:
I've Done __ of the 120 stupidest things.


"Hey! D'you know we's in the spirit world? Heh-hah!"

REAP THE WHIRLWIND!

"And Bon Jovi sang."

<----Dance The Magic Dance!

Kiefer.....

IN A BLAZE OF GLORY...

o,,o; BOO!

And I still have Dunkin Donuts! XD

Three Musketeers and Young Guns With myself as Porthos/Billy.
My beloved Gina <3 A.K.A - Athos/Doc
My Ryce <3 A.K.A. - Aramis/Chavez

Resistance is futile:




Friends bumped off my mainpage:

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"Hey! D'you know we's in the spirit world? Heh-hah!"

REAP THE WHIRLWIND!

"And Bon Jovi sang."

<----Dance The Magic Dance!

Kiefer.....

IN A BLAZE OF GLORY...

Yeah...I totally don't keep up with online journals at all. I can't even keep up with a real one, let alone an online one. Too busy, too much going on in my life to bother with them. But it's been awhile, and I'm sitting here online...doing nothing....bored outta my effin' mind. So..yay here's some updates.
I work at CVS Pharmacy now. I'm a pharmacy technician, and I get certified on the 19th. The lady that does the exam is going to be in the pharmacy until we get a lead technician in, which means she'll be there to drill me until the exam day comes and make sure I know everything. But it's intimidating even now because I feel like if I don't know something, it will count against me, even though it doesn't. Maybe I'm just paranoid because my little sleep issue, detailed below.

My teeth are so effed up right now. All 4 of my wisdom teeth need to come out, as soon as possible. I've got two on the top that are crushing all the others into my pallette, and I've got two on the bottom that are growing INTO my other teeth. So yeah..ow. I deal with the throbbing on a regular basis now, and they hurt like f*ck. The only problem being..They won't operate on me until I get seen by a physician for my heart murmur, because they're unsure how my body will react to the anesthetic. So yeah...fun. I've got an appointment on friday. Let's just hope the damn valve isn't entirely deadened. *flicks at her heart* Not to mention, my asthma, so I'm not sure how my lungs will like the anesthetic either. I've never been into surgery, I've never NOT been aware of and in control of my own body, it kinda wigs me out a little...I'm not going alone.
You can see how f*cked up they are here:
[link]

But that's not the only thing wrong. My insomnia and anxiety have both gotten to the point where I'm getting little-to-no sleep at all anymore. It's not a matter of choosing to stay up late just because I dont wanna go to bed, it's a matter of not being physically ABLE to sleep. I close my eyes what seems like a MINUTE later and I'll look at my clock and HOURS have gone by. I can't sink into deep REM sleep. I'm gonna go f*ckin' insane. It's like my brain is entirely absent of the chemical needed to reach delta brainwave sleep. Need me some clonazepam and zolpidem to fix these f*cked up chemicals. But I work at a pharmacy now and can fill my own scripts when I get them. : D Ain't that cool?

I miss you Gina...I miss you so much....please bear with me, I know I've been extraordinarily difficult, lately, I'm just....sore, sleepless, and strung out thread bare right now. It might all just be because my chemistry is so f*cked right now and because I havent slept a solid 3 hours in the last month or so. I'm twitchy, I'm snappy, I'm running on empty. I don't mean to upset you or anything. I love you so very much, and I'm trying baby.


"Hey! D'you know we's in the spirit world? Heh-hah!"

REAP THE WHIRLWIND!

"And Bon Jovi sang."

<----Dance The Magic Dance!

Kiefer.....

IN A BLAZE OF GLORY...

8 Random Things About Yourself
1.- post the rules
2.- write down 8 random things about yourself.
3.- you must tag 8 folks ((....Nobody reads my journals anyway, so therefore, I tag my cat. When she learns how to type, I'll let you all know.))

1~I hate surveys. ._. Not to mention, I'm not gonna make anyone feel obligated to fill this out. You fill out one survey, then you've technically done them all. They're all the same, just a different way of saying the same things. I really don't mean to sound rude by my attitude towards these, but the only reason I'm doing this right now Gina is for you, to make you happy.....I'm sorry..i love you

2~I need to get my wisdom teeth pulled. They hurt. I'm a sissy and don't like pain.

3~I would like a get a new computer...soon. This one's on it's last leg, and if it goes, I won't be able to get online and spend time with Gina, or RP. Stupid CPU fan. *hits it with a brick*

4~I like RPing. Lots. : D Ish fun. Good temporary escape from reality. Cause we all know how bad reality can suck at times. I get random sporatic attachments to certain SLs. It's not really obsession, but it's just...drive..you know? When I'm hooked on an SL or idea, and I dont get to RP it out, I get frustrated and grumpy, and strung out, and sad, sometimes even mopey and a little detached. I just get the feeling in my head that I've accomplished absolutely nothing, and I HATE that feeling. I hate feeling like I've gotten nothing done. It drives me absolutely insane. Not just in RPing but IRL too, sometimes even at work. Like when I'm in the middle of doing something or if I'm asked or expected to complete a project, and I'm told/asked to do something completely different, I just..I don't know, it's like nails on a chalkboard. Aggravating and unnerving. Because I KNOW that if I get sidetracked from what I'm working on, I won't be able to get anything done, and it drives me up the damn wall...but uh...yeah...I like RPing. ^,,^<3

5~I like music. Music calms me down. I like singing, I'm kinda good at it. Nothing spectacular though. But yeah, I listen to 80's music. 80's pop, 80's dance, 80's Rock, 80's Metal. Everything else sucks IMO, though there's given exceptions, which are too many to state here. Like for example. One song that...more or less gets me through life, is Winger "Easy Come Easy Go"...it's my anthem and it's what gave me my carefree attitude about bullshit that life does. Without it, I'd probably be in a hug-me-coat somewhere in some padded room. More people should listen to that song. I tried to send the song to a few friends, and suggested they listen to it, and follow it's message, but a few of them have a hard time learning how to let go and move on and would rather sit there and be grumpy and sad. Bottom line, if you let little shit in life bother you to the point of insanity, you'll wind up exactly that. Insane. Calm down, take a deep breath and let things go, dont hold onto things that upset you, just move on, and forget it, otherwise you'll stay upset. Every day is a clean slate.

6~I have no social life. I have a few friends nearby, but we haven't been out to do anything since Ryce was up visiting from GA. I feel bad, I've kinda ignored them/cut off contact. It's not because I'm anti-social. As a matter of fact, I'm very social, I've just been very busy with work lately, and what time I DO have to myself, I'd rather spend online with Gina. She seems to think I hold a grudge about this fact, but it's not the case at all. I prefer to spend my free time with her, snuggling, playing RO, and RPing, because I love her, and we see so little of each other as it is. I miss my friends, but I miss my baby more.

7~ Material things I want: A house,....too many things to name. I'm not greedy, there's just alot of stuff that I'd like to have, most of it, stuff that I'd share with Gina. <3 I know I'll never have half of the stuff I want, but it's nice to dream, huh? ^,,^;

8~ I'd really....REALLY like to become an actress....I'm not getting any younger and I really wish I'd just get a break. I know I can act, I've taken classes for it, and I love doing it. I guess it ties into my love for RPing too. I dunno, I never grew out of the 'retend' phase. People tell me to grow up all the time.. ._. They just don't understand. But yeah.... my dream is to be an actress. Film, stage.. ^_^


bulletred:THINGS I NEED TO DO
-Cynthia, Charles' new toy
-New stuff for journal, header, footer etc
-New ID for myself

WORK IN PROGRESS
-Lost Boys hunting grounds pixel art : D

And I still have Dunkin Donuts! XD

Three Musketeers and Young Guns With myself as Porthos/Billy.
My beloved Gina <3 A.K.A - Athos/Doc
My Ryce <3 A.K.A. - Aramis/Chavez

Resistance is futile:




Friends bumped off my mainpage:

Stamp by [link]


"Hey! D'you know we's in the spirit world? Heh-hah!"

REAP THE WHIRLWIND!

"And Bon Jovi sang."

<----Dance The Magic Dance!

Kiefer.....